New Years Resolutions, 2006

***THIS IS MY NEW YEARS POST FROM LAST YEAR. AS I HAVEN'T HAD TIME TO SIT DOWN AND WRITE A NEW ONE, I THOUGHT I'D CHEAT AND JUST USE THIS ONE. I SHOULD HOPEFULLY BE ABLE TO SIT AT THE COMPUTER AFTER BEDTIME SOON, AND VERY SOON. WE SHOULD BE STARTING WORK ON OUR HOUSE BY NEXT WEEK. KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED!***

Well, it’s 1:30 on the morning of January 1st, 2006. I’m sitting in front of my computer, thanks to an earlier ingestion of caffeine. I’m picking apart a salad, because I decided I only wanted to eat the baby carrots, not the lettuce or tomatoes. And I’m thinking, as I have been for the last several days, about New Year’s resolutions. Wondering if I should make any at all. And if I do, should I share them with anyone, or keep them personal? What should they be? Should they be deep, spiritual, emotional things? Like, strengthen my relationship with God by praying six hours a day? Or shallow, physical things? Like, take a shower every day? Maybe a bit of both? Maybe I should start by examining the things about me that I want to change. Get comfortable, ‘cause this could be a long list.

PHYSICAL:
1. Find a good haircut (and someone who knows how to do it).
2. Lose five pounds (preferably in my butt and thighs).
3. Learn how to do my makeup.
4. Buy proper makeup so I can do it right.
5. Do some sit-ups so I can get back the stomach muscles I lost after Tyner was born.
6. Start a regular exercise routine, whether at home or in a gym.
7. Eat healthier, i.e. less refined stuff, more fruits and veggies, less eating out, less soda.
8. Drink water, ‘cause really, I hardly drink any at all.
9. Start dressing better, more feminine. Lose the jeans and t-shirts all the time.
10. Start going to bed earlier (by 10 pm-ish).
11. Stop ingesting caffeine (because it’s EVIL!!!!).

EMOTIONAL/MENTAL:
1. Be a better mother. Less explosive. More fun. More consistent.
2. Be a better wife. Less explosive. More fun. More understanding.
3. Figure out who BETH is. Not who she’s supposed to be, but who she really is.
4. Finally take at least ONE step towards my career goal (career dream, actually, ‘cause I’ve got no goals right now): Accounting.
5. Find myself outside of my family (husband, children, parents, sisters).
6. Continue counseling with Jason, no matter where we’re living.
7. Do my LiveJournal more often, as it’s a good venting place.

SPIRITUAL:1. Get closer to God (how clichéd).
2. Do devotionals every day, instead of every...year?
3. Remember how well God provides for the Hudson family, and continue to trust Him.
4. Teach my children more about God, and be an example for them.
5. Pray more often for my family, and others around me. Maybe start a prayer journal?

FOR FUN:
1. Continue scrapbooking, and finding joy in it.
2. Try to schedule ME time every month, for something totally girly (eyebrow waxing SO does not count!).
3. Pick up a new hobby, maybe something Jay and I can do together (Jay suggested golf).
4. Do something fun with one or both of my children more than rarely.

Well, there is the list as I see it. For now, anyway. I’m sure I could think of a lot more if I really thought about it, and if it wasn’t almost 2:00 am. I don’t know that I’ll make these all New Year’s resolutions. Maybe they should be lifetime goals. Maybe I should really look at them and start making some short-term goals out of them. Why does it have to take so much time to better yourself? Man, I’m such a whiner. Maybe I should add “Stop whining so much” to my list.

So, maybe my NY resolution shouldn’t be all of these things on my list. Maybe it should be only one thing: BETH’S NEW YEARS RESOLUTION 1. Carefully review list of desired changes and begin setting attainable goals for yourself!

Yay! I figured it out. The secret to personal fulfillment and happiness. The Meaning of Life. Okay, maybe not your life, but mine at least. Okay, signing off at exactly 2:00 am on the first day of the New Year. Here’s hoping I can post this, and LiveJournal doesn’t kick me off like it did before. Good thing I typed and saved this in Word first, huh? I’m so smart.